elricbros123

I can't believe that it has been over a year since I have logged on or submitted anything. I mean I haven't been super creative lately. I have been cooking more which that in itself is an art form. But I have recently begun painting again. Though I am having trouble with inspirations or even what I want to paint.

Lately things have been kind of weird. A good friend got me painting again, I thank him for that every day.
But anyways between work and being back in school and such I don't have all the time in the world, but lately I do feel like I'm lost again, I don't know what I want to be when I grow up anymore... Then again I am kind of an adult already. Maybe I'll be where i need to and want to be before I turn 25. Here's to hoping.  


Anyways, just so everyone knows I am still alive and kicking. And hopefully will be putting up some artwork soon.


Anyone that wants to help with ideas for paintings. Suggestions are greatly appreciated

Life has been all sorts of messed up for me lately. I don't know what I am going to do, but what I do know is that.

What I do know is that I love the Sims game because it allows me to control life and have things go more the way that I want it to go. But I guess that if life was like that for real, when things do go right, it wouldn't be as special. 


I know that life is going this way for a reason and I know that in the end what is meant to be will be, and there is nothing that I can do about it, I just hope that things don't end up negative for me.  I'm being cryptic I know but if anyone actually reads this anyways, too bad. 


I think that I am going to look into buying a house, if I can get the loan that is. I mean the worst that can happen is that I can't get one. Idk. I just want something nice in my life again, I mean my little brother just got a really nice car, and I just have nothing. The only thing that I have is that I don't live with my parents. I don't know...


I am going to start working on some more art work. Mostly writing I think taking the things that are in my life and using some as inspiration for short stories will be good. Maybe they'll even be good.

Holy crap...

First off, I haven't posted anything here in years. Even longer for the journals... It's been like two years... Shocking. So much has happened in those two years too...


I mean I went from being a cook to a custodian. Went from being single to now engaged... Living with mommy and daddy to now living with my fiance.. Seriously so much has happened in the last few years it seems unreal.

I haven't had much time to do art. Which makes me sad but it's nice ot look at the art of other people, and get inspired to do some of my own.

Hopefully once my fiance's restaurant gets open I'll have more time to do art related stuff... As I won't be there all the time.



Who knows though...

Things have been going pretty bad for me lately. My hours at work have been slashed, I have to go to court on Friday. And I am just having a pretty stressful time right now, and thus have lost the motivation and drive to write. I have been applying places recently and hope to find something better and new soon, cause the place that I am at now isn't really working out.

But good news is I have found this man from work, whom I think is a definite keeper. He's cute and sweet. He loves to cook homemade meals for me And he makes me so very happy. I seem to be spending all the free time that I get with him because no matter what we do, even when we don't do anything. I think that it may be safe to say that I am definitely falling for him. Hell already have fallen way to hard.

My stories could have  a new drive with my new view on love and relationships, or they could just flop and I could end them and attempt to start something new. I haven't really decided yet.

Wow... I have been working so much lately that I haven't even had the chance to sleep, much less work on the fanfiction that I want to finish. I am actually to the point in the Love Conquers All? that I am stuck as to where to take it, due to the fact that there are so many potential paths that I want to take it on, I am actually debating bringing some of my favorite Trauma Team characters (you know Naomi, Little Guy, Alyssa, Gabe, Maria, Joshua) perhaps even somehow finding a way to incorporate my newest addiction, Law and Order SVU. I mean if I can bring Naomi in here then I am sure that I could somehow get it so that Olivia and Elliot were here as well. But I am just bouncing ideas out into the open... since I am stuck here for the time being. I hope to finish the next part of this story soon, and as soon as I do I shall have it posted.